Pray for Nenek

Hi. If you happen to read this, do pray for my nenek, my dad's mother. My sister just told me that she's warded in UH, PJ on December 16th, Malaysian morning time. My brother and my sister visited her during lunch hours, and she was in pretty bad shape. But then, in the evening she took Yaya and Ayiel to visit nenek again and she looks a lot better.

I know I should accept whatever happens, and nenek is already 85+, but all the same, I can't be there. I haven't gotten through my dad, and I know he doesn't plan on telling me, that's why he didn't even text me. In April-May this year, none of my family members contacted me for a long time, because they were hiding something from me. It wasn't until Midwest Games (May 24-26) that they suddenly called me, and slow-talked me to tell me what happened.

What did they expect me to do? Laugh? Of course I'll cry. What with not knowing something as crucial as that, and me worrying about why they didn't contact me, and not telling me when I texted/called them?? Alhamdulillah that things worked out then, but what if it was the opposite? What if it was bad news? Would my grandmother (wan, not nenek) be adamant that I didn't know until I came back for the summer (which she didn't even know of, since my going back was a surprise)? Would they only give in when it's too late??

Aaargh, I don't understand why they must keep things from me. I'm turning 20 next year, I have every right to know. If I find out things last minute, the more lah I'll fret and worry and cry tersedu-sedu because I feel guilty I didn't know. Don't they know that???? I mean, I knowlah they don't want to me to worry because I'm all alone here in Chicago, but to me, I'd rather know and not be shocked by bad news all of a sudden, when it's too late.

Anyways, yes, please pray that she gets well soon, or Allah will bless her in any case. I don't know why she's warded, she's mainly healthy. I'm guessing it's just sakit tua. Thank you all.